The Day of Nervous Breakdowns.....

I am calling today "the day of nervous breakdowns" because this day has been just that. My world was practically flipped upside down today, and so many different things happen that are SO out of the ordinary.

To start off my day, we almost got in a car crash on the way to school. I'm not joking. We were stopped at a red light. A car ran a red light and crashed into another car that had a green light. The car that ran the light seriously came flying at our car. I think I screamed/freaked out/had a panic attack/had a nervous breakdown. It was seriously one of the scariest things.... I was just so thankful that the lady turned her car in time and that no one was hurt!

And then in Chemistry class, I accidentally deleted part of my homework and was freaking out. But my teacher was totally cool about it, so that was good!

In my Pre-Calculus class, we heard someone randomly started screaming. I still never found out what happened, but it scared me.

AND THEN, we had a fire drill today which scares me every time because it is SO loud.

My mom also decided to grow out her hair, which was totally shocking to me because she has had the same hair style for about as long as I can remember.

As you might be able to tell, I had a pretty traumatic day! I'm hoping I don't have to go through another day like this for a while.....


And even though I had a kind of crazy day, I had a nice end to my day (surprisingly). My entire family went up to the hospital to have a pizza party with my grandpa. It was a lot of fun!

The matching girls:



I always love getting together with my whole family, even though it's always super crazy and super loud. I seriously think we have one of the loudest families :) I know we were the loudest group on floor 8 tonight!

And I think this picture of all the grand kids is super cute, especially how Casey has her arms around my cousin Catie & I :)

Tuesday List: Christmas List

This is my first Tuesday List from the blog Love From Texas. And I thought the Christmas list would be such a fun post to be a part of because I LOVE Christmas and I'm really looking forward to it (and I've been dying to watch Christmas Vacation, which is one of my favorite movies EVER). So what am I thinking I want this Christmas?....

1. Jessica Simpson's Fancy Perfume



I've had my eye on this perfume for a long time because I absolutely love the smell of it! Has anyone ever tried it, and if so, do you like it?

2. New iPod Speakers



I currently have $20 iPod speakers that have been good, but I hardly ever use them! I have 1 plug for both my iPod speakers and my clock that shines the time on the wall. I LOVE being able to see the time so easily on my wall, so I almost always have that plugged in, leaving no room for my speakers. These speakers have a built in wall shining clock, so it seems like a good investment for me.

3. New boots!



Boots are what my feet practically live in all winter long. I have a pair of EMUs and a pair of simple black ones, but I think these are absolutely adorable. And not to mention the fact that I've tried them on and they are super warm :)

4. Scarves



I have to say, I am kind of obsessed with scarves. I love to wear them! I think they are too cute and are a perfect way to accessorize in the fall and winter. I hope to expand my collection of them - ha!

But anyway, these are the first few things that popped into my head. I can't believe it's almost Christmas. It will be here before I know it :)

Weekend

Well, the weekend has come and gone (why does it have to go so fast?). I'm really dreading tomorrow morning - there is just something about Monday mornings that automatically put me into a bad mood.

On Friday night I headed to the mall to do some shopping. I didn't really buy a whole lot - just some lip gloss and a new shirt. Even though I did buy a lot of food, which always seems to happen every time I go to the mall. All of the food there is just SO good.

And then on Saturday morning I headed down to the Breast Cancer walk downtown. I absolutely LOVE doing this walk because there are always so many people (there were around 20,000 this year) and it is for such a great cause.

And I love that everyone wears pink because that is my absolute favorite color, and I had a ton of pink stuff to wear!



My family and I at the walk:



Since the walk was early in the morning, I came home and took a 3 hour nap, and let me tell you - it felt SO good.

And on Saturday night I got to babysit this little girl....



...and this little boy....



(and yes, these pictures are from last Christmas! They were the only ones I could find off of my mom's Facebook - ha!)

I had a lot of fun babysitting them. They were too funny. Brandon told me that I wasn't very good at putting diapers on. I was cracking up :) But they were really good for me, and I always have a fun time watching them.

Today has been a lazy day of homework and such. Have I mentioned how much I really don't want to go to school tomorrow????

Letting Go

I haven't blogged in awhile, partly because I haven't had time, and partly because I didn't know how to put my thoughts into words, but I think I've finally sorted everything out in my mind. I've done a LOT of thinking these last couple days. So I wanted to get my thoughts all written down about everything that has gone through my mind.

A little while I read a post about Longing or Living. I really liked the post as I read it, but I've really taken it to heart the last couple of days & weeks. Last Saturday, which was over a week ago, Grandpa fell and had to be taken to the hospital, and he's been in there ever since. He is getting better day by day, but there was one day when he was done. He wanted to die. He didn't want to suffer anymore. He said his "goodbyes" to almost everyone in my family (except for me since I was in school throughout this whole thing). Thankfully his doctor helped to change his mind and see how easy it would be to fix everything that is wrong with him. So, almost everyday we've been going up to the hospital to visit him. Like I said. I haven't had a whole lot of time to do a lot of stuff, like blog :)

My other reason for not blogging was trying to find a way to get my thoughts out there. About a month ago, I noticed that one of my friends started coordinating a lot of things to do over the weekend. Which is totally great because I hate being the one to coordinate things :) However, she wasn't inviting me. Along with 3-4 of my friends, I've been sitting back while hearing almost every weekend about what everyone did without me. It's been getting ridiculous. My friends who aren't getting invited as well and I all agree that it's extremely annoying. We also have no idea what we did to stop getting asked to go out on Friday & Saturday nights. I've racked my brain and can't come up with anything. And on this past Saturday night my friends once again got invited to go to one of their houses while 4 of us were left uninvited.

Seinfeld History Lesson


So, we got together and hung out :) And watched the video above. Which was great. But it would have been better if all of our friends had been together. A lot of these girls I have been friends with for years, and I just don't want to let them go.

This is where the Longing or Living post comes into play. This weekend I've been longing. Not exactly living. I know that I needed the time to sort through my thoughts, but I'm stil longing. Longing for a time when all of my friends got along. Longing for a time when life was "easier". Longing for a chance to just escape from everything. Longing for anything but reality. Longing instead of living. Living instead of longing is a very, very difficult thing to do. I know that my problems might seem "silly" or "childish". But they are completely real and heartbreaking to me, which makes them "serious" to me.

I've been trying to come to grips with the terms Letting Go. Those are words that I fear, despise, hate, etc. I don't want to let go of anything when it comes to the relationships with my friends, but adjustments have to be made from time to time. And what was extremely funny was the fact that my religion teacher specifically prayed for people who needed help letting go today. One of her lines in the prayer was "let us pray for those who need help letting go of friends". It was a good reminder that God is with me and will help me in the coming weeks and months which may be difficult.

I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and constraints, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak, I am strong.
- 2 Corinthians 12:10

Green Week

This week was green week at my school! Our school "color" is green, and this is just a week of dressing up in green and showing a ton of spirit! I tried to take pictures of my outfits each day, but some of them aren't all that green...:)

The first day's theme was go green hair and flare, so the whole idea was to wear green in your hair along with green accessories. I think I did this one pretty good with some green jewelery and green ribbons and stuff in my hair.



The next theme was go green patterns. This was a toughie for me because I hardly had any green patterned stuff! The only thing I could find was this green striped ribbon, but I guess it's better than nothing :) (and it was absolutely impossible for me to get a decent picture of this)



Thursday's theme was go green greenhouse. Which I thought was kind of stupid at first, but it ended up not being all that bad/difficult. The whole point was to wear green flowers or plants or anything with recycling and literally "going green" environmentally. So, I wore a go green Seton flower shirt, and in art class we made necklaces out of green packaging peanuts as a way of recycling them.



And today's theme was ALL OUT GREEN. So basically, just wear anything green that you've got. Unfortuantely, I don't have a whole lot of green stuff. Mainly just t-shirts that I get from school. But I was able to put together some stuff to wear.



Today was actually a good day because for one, I got a 100 on my Ancient Chinese civilizations quiz (which was NOT fun to study for AT ALL, but at least it payed off). And then we had the lip synch concert at school. All of the student council members make up routines to a mix of songs, and it's always a lot of fun. Plus my school is real into spirit, and I think that is just too fun. We did a lot of cheers this afternoon, and my grade won the coveted spirit stick for being the most spirited & loud! It's been a pretty good week ;)

YOU:create

So, I've missed the last couple YOU:create's because I've been busy, and I just haven't been able to make something creative! But I finally did one again this week.

It's an artwork that I had to do for my art class, and the entire time I was working on it, I thought it would be a good thing to use for this week!



It might be a little difficult to see, but clicking on it should make it bigger. The whole idea for this artwork was a summer theme as kind of a close to summer :( The background is a summer still-life that my art teacher set up. There is a bucket, a bottle of bubbles, and a flip-flop. Then I wrote over top of it the words, summer time. The background is all black and white, and the words kind of bring out the color, since I only colored the sections of the objects that fell inside one of the letters. Like I said, it is EXTREMELY hard to see. And even in real life it is a little abstracted and you really have to think about it while looking at it! But I had a fun time creating it, which is what this whole YOU:create thing is all about :)

Labor Day Weekend

It's been a great long weekend! I was so happy to have a 3 day weekend, and it ended up being really fun, and the weather was awesome as well!

On Friday night I went out to eat with some of my friends for dinner. And then I had a few of them come back to my house to watch the premiere of Camp Rock 2! The movie was really good (extremely cheesy at times, but awesome!).



This was my favorite song from Camp Rock 2 :) I just LOVE singing along to this one.

And onto Saturday.....

Saturday was the Garage Get Down dance at my school. The day started off kind of rough, but the dance ended up being a lot of fun! I was sad because not all of my friends could be together before the dance, and then my new pajamas just didn't look the way I wanted them to with my slippers. (The dance is themed and our grade's theme was pj's - which was great because I was super comfortable the whole night!) So my Mom & I ended up going around trying to find some new slippers. And guess where I ended up finding ones that I liked? Kmart....ha! I never shop there, but we were desperate and I ended up getting a good buy! Then I headed over to my friend Nicci's house to get ready for the dance.



It ended up being a lot of fun, and I was sad/annoyed all morning for nothing :)



And I ended up not even wearing the new pajamas I got specifically for the dance. I ended up going with my leopard print robe instead (which I thought was a lot cuter anyway)



The dance is the absolute perfect place to people watch because everyone is dressed up so crazy! I think that half of the fun of this dance is just getting dressed up!





I tried to get a picture with each of my friends, but I think I might have missed a few of them.





Group shots before we left for the dance.





I ended up only taking 2 pictures at the dance, but I think everyone had a fun time :)

And then on Sunday I had a pretty lazy day. I got a lot of homework done though, and it was nice to just lounge around the house pretty much all day. I actually didn't step outside my house last night until 7:30. We headed out to go to the annual fireworks display downtown. And look what I ended up wearing.....



.....FALL CLOTHES! I've been dying to pull out boots, jeans, and jackets and I finally got the chance last night! I was SO excited. I love summer, but I have to admit that I am getting extremely tired of the crazy hot temperatures. It's been in the 90s the last couple weeks, and it's going back up there this week. So my glimpse of fall didn't last long, but I was very thankful for it.



I love this fireworks display because it is always so great. It lasts for awhile, and they always have some cool stuff.



But at the same time, seeing them always makes me sad because they are basically like the end of summer. Labor day weekend is always like that for me - all of the pools close down and everything just seems to say fall from here on out (aside from these crazy temperatures!).



But this weekend was a such a nice one! It was good to have a little break from school, even though I've only been back to school for 2 weeks....